Family upheavals disrupted my psyche. I felt so helpless as I could and still cannot help.Maybe it is selfish in wanting to assist as I realise that others have a path to walk in their journey of life. Much anger and frustration has built up as to how unfair life can really be sometimes. Although we turn it around and look at how we have overcome, the lessons we have learned and how much stronger we have become, the initial emotion does tend to weigh heavy. I wonder sometimes how it is that there are so many rotten people in this world that only think of themselves. It does blow my mind. Ok, I suppose Im the overeager person who loves to believe that everyone has some good in them somewhere - so I set myself up for disappointment.
Money matters can be so tricky and when I struggle all the time I become weary and it is hard to keep hope alive. It irks me that a person has to keep struggling at an age where they should be financially free. Like I said, life isnt fair. I started a little business that will take some time to build, this I realise but in the meantime we have to eat dont we?
I have taken quite a firm standing towards negative people that keep injecting my world with their poison. Goodness me, I have had enough to worry about this year, but they came and hit me with more stuff that 'could go wrong' 'you should do this rather than that because' 'have you thought that someone can break in' AAARRRGHHH!! So ties had to be broken.
Now I have loaded off some of the not so good stuff, let me say that through the year there have been many wonderful memorable moments, so many new things happening and so much to be thankful for. Although I have mouthed off above - all is not doom and gloom. Things have happened that now, viewing them in hindsight I understand how all of the puzzle pieces have fitted together. Reminds me of a saying "Oh yee of little faith"
So I forge into 2015 with renewed gusto, as there are many wonderful things that are no longer on the horison, but are here before me to live and enjoy