Yes, I am having a melt-down. I am allowed to - I am experiencing every negative emotion known to mankind right now.
I am angry, disappointed, hateful, revengeful, frustrated, sad, anxious, battered, lost, grieving... I am human..... tomorrow, maybe the next day, or next week I shall emerge from this cocoon more enlightened and stronger but till then, I journal starting with the When, Where, Why, What and How's... get it all out (never mind how silly it looks when it is written) then I pop into my Joy Journal to write about things I am grateful and appreciative of before I rest my head on the pillow and hopefully rest for 8 hours (something that has successfully eluded me the past few days)
This is what I KNOW and not what I FEEL - I KNOW Im strong, happy, satisfied, successful, loving, kind, giving, serene, joyful and on the right path so I will let the emotions run their course, do their work and lay the demons to rest. Its a moment to exercise some patience with myself - a chance to be kind and let myself cry on my own shoulder.
One thing is certain, the road I was on, I shall steer clear of in the future, the lesson has been learned, and for that I am grateful!