Inadvertently I have been battered and bruised by this choice. I have come to realise that although I may understand why they do, why they do and the intent behind it all, I cannot negate how their actions make ME feel - I have tended to push my feelings aside and give preference to theirs and the end result is that THEY are OK but Im left feeling empty and used.
I forget that it is I who is walking this path, it is I who must acknowledge that I need to change direction when your behaviour makes me feel less than what I think of myself. It is I who must reclaim my right to surround myself with people who love me unconditionally.
I do not ask for them to change - it is wrong for me to decide what their life path should be. I must accept them for who they are - it would be unfair for of me to expect that they accept me as I am if I cannot do the same for them. I just understand that my life path is different from theirs, this is MY journey and although we may from time to time cross paths we can no longer share the same road.
It is I who choose to grow beyond, it is I who choose to cry and mend my own wounds, chase my own demons and make peace with my light and dark sides.