For expecting you to love me, For expecting you to care, For expecting you to be thoughtful, For wanting you to make me your point of desire, For wanting you to be my friend, For expecting that you accept me, For expecting you to be truthful, For expecting you to treat me with as much respect as I do you, For asking that which you cannot give, For resting in the knowledge that you will always be there...........
I let myself be attached to the outcome instead of being detached. I was attached, rendered powerless because of what I attached myself to. I gave my power away to it. I projected negative emotions of fear, doubt, and craving which actually attracted the opposite of what I desire. I was operating from a position of worry, fear and doubt rather than serenity, trust and faith.
When I looked to outside sources to fulfill me, I gave my your power away. I was making something other than my true self the source of my happiness.
I forgot the most important thing EVER:
"Let go and let God. Anything you want can be acquired through detachment, because detachment is based on resting in the complete grace of God and knowing that He is always working everything through you and together for your greatest good. To be detached is to realize that everything good is from God and nothing at all is from you. It is God doing it through you and the other elements in your reality so there’s nothing to hold on to as your own, all you have to do is to have the right beliefs and let God do it. Attachment to anything will always create insecurity no matter how much of it you have. In fact, some of the people who have the most of what they want are the most insecure. Attachment to something makes you wonder if you will keep having it or if you may lose it. Insecurity causes unhappiness.The search for security and certainty is actually an attachment to the known. There’s no evolution in that, absolutely none at all. And when there is no evolution, there is stagnation, entropy, disorder, and disintegration." Deepak Chopra
Im sorry I expected.... I forgot that ALL GOOD THINGS come from GOD and to seek HIS face in everything, worry for nothing and rest in HIS peace which surpasses ANY understanding this world has to offer